No Judging

Leave that to Judge Judy! How often are the voices in our head reminding us of where we fall short? Subtle whispers that say "You're too whiney, or too critical of others, your hair is a mess, your life isn't important." Many of these thoughts pass through our brain at the speed of light & we may not even notice the negative self-talk we convince ourselves of daily. I wasn't aware of this until I really got into recovery in March of 2015. I was taught how to pay attention to my thoughts, my anger- all of my feelings for that matter. What I have learned is that as much as we worry about what others think of us is not nearly as crucial of what we think of ourselves. I had to spend time alone, with my own mind, body and soul to learn what it was that was holding me back from living my fullest life, reaching my optimal potential for success.

It was ME.

I was the one holding me back! I was the one allowing what others said to affect my thinking and my thinking that determined how I feel. These feelings would fester into a ball of anxiety and stress that kept me sick and tired day in and day out. Until I realized that no one could pull me out of this darkness, I was stuck in my misery. Although, on the outside I was able to put on my best smile, best outfit, best makeup, and go pretend life was all peaches & cream. I went on this way for several years believing that as long as I'm not drinking I'm doing alright. But, I still had a God sized hole in my heart. Something was missing. All along, I thought it was man.

Well, the stress & anxiety of pretending to live such a healthy life finally caught up to me in January of 2021 when I began have GI issues. By May I was unable to work. I realized this was stress and food related. My body had become toxic. I cleaned up my diet and reduced stress. Began meditating again, praying, & letting God hold me at night while I slept. I Cut out toxic people and activities that didn't feel right any longer. I start to get cramps in my tummy if I become stressed or anxious. It is a sure sign it's time to make a change of scene and head home. My new comfort zone. I used to hate the idea of being home alone. But, now I cherish it. With all this time being in bed or on the toilet, I have had time to sit and rest and heal with God. I have surrendered to His voice and His only to guide me through the next steps in life. Just for today I ask, Lord what do you want me to do? I quiet my mind and listen... the first thought, the second and third... I ask again, Lord which is it you want me to do? Then I do it. On days I feel good I want to take the reins and go "make money" but he tells me to make oil, work on my website. Its tough not to stress about the lack of money due to my illness; especially since I have been such a hard worker since the age of 14 when I started washing dishes in a restaurant. I was never afraid to work. I was very social and working with others was always a pleasure.

So, all in all I had to take this "down time" to get closer to God and define my true calling. The only way to slow me down was to make me ill. I guess thats what it took to get to where I am today. I never feel alone. I am surrounded by Angels and Gods Holy Spirit at all times. I'm not afraid of any demon. They are nothing compared to the Power of God. That same Power He gave to Us. That power, I have been utilizing to protect myself and my family from all the chaos in the world, and to change my thinking and very harmful negative self talk I was consumed with. I had to wake up to the darkness. I had to see the dark to really know and understand the light. We all have have light and dark sides. Don't judge yourself for your shortcomings. God made us weak so we can get strength from Him- not the energy drinks and Big Macs. (Dang it!) Slow down, breathe, listen to your mind, your body & your soul. What is it asking for? What is it needing? Are you drawn to certain scents? Colors? People? Honor your whole self. Every single day!

I have been so blessed because I have these beautiful God given flowers, herbs & oils and a desire to create products that make people feel good naturally with no chemicals. I'm full of passion and motivation at this time in life. I pray the momentum continues as we reach more people, helping them to feel better in all areas of life. They make me feel good and my wish is that they do the same for you. Because life is what we make it. It is our choice to make...you can find peace in your own backyard...if you choose to. Peace takes action away from distraction.

Love Lots,

SugaBee~

Bridgette Trosclair-Vasichek

Bee Well

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